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I'd spent the day in bed moping, lamenting the lack of energy, pretending she still cared and would make everything alright. I got up around 3 when Les came to feed and clean the birds, we chatted about the storm on her horizon so I have that to motivate me too.

I bid her farewell, she was taking Kate to dinner, and climbed the stairs feeling the energy begin to swirl in the emptiness of my spine. I put on pancakes from the bowl I'd used at lunch with cinamon and a little of the white sugar dickwad left me. Aside from the fact that I overcooked the first one they were very satisfying and now I can meditate on the flow of chi while I tell you about my conversation with Noah.

I spoke with my golden angel yesterday, I just realized the line I need to remember, we all try to deny the truth, to once again eat steak.

And as I looked at our reflection in the bathroom mirror, he put his hand on my shoulder and, slowly, with dramatic intention he said "You are the greatest magician to have ever lived, it will ALL come back to you when you need it"

I need to find a tai chi master, axtually there is a group here in Gravenhurst, money, or lack thereof, is the root of all troubles, back to work! She smiles in shades of pure light and I cry every time

Live love and stay Wild my friends

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