Mystic flux

What is at the core of my being? What is it that makes me soldier on? Why live to fight another day? For love? For money? For What? As long as I can remember The days have come and gone Inspiration ebbs and flows away away away Some days I find the place, The excitement of it fills me and all will be OK But no, not today. How could I ever ask her to understand? How could I promise her what was not there to give. If I could only will it I would, But no, there was no will that could And time and time again the burden The terrible weight of nothing crushing No corner is dark enough to hide you When the searcher is inside you So many dreams while mindless hours parade Flashed across a silver lining like a meaningful charade 246 thousand hours made all the silly ideas fade So many hopes the fool danced out And now just sad and lonely lout But wait... one dream has truly come about Work and work and sweat believe This time the ring you will retrieve Start afresh, and no more lies Shielded fr...

I woke with a start and looked down She let a soft sweet sigh I pulled myself out carefully Trying not to wake her Silent to the bathroom I stole For refreshment And relief I stood at the sink and savoured Icy water going down Quenching my parched body Spent from the nights encounter Through the open door I see her Reflected, Nubile, dark and pure Hair of carbon black Laying perfect down her back I closed my eyes and lived again Ecstatic comfort, joy and bliss Never have I known before A conquest quite like this When my eyes I opened The mirror breathed with rage Pulsing right before me My heart jumped to my throat A silent scream i let out For standing there behind me Dark olive skin was painted With the Creole mask of death Out I ran into the hall Followed by a bone rattling sound A basso voice was chuckling With my fear he was amused As I ran into the hallway I looked back to see him follow Walking slow and steady The boney hand of death I looked up to find I was running Through som...

How can it be that sorrow is all I feel? To shut off all that’s real To play the role yearning for applause Worth judged only by accolades accorded me Oh woe is me the drama queen Something, any little hint that I am not alone The little box I’ve built for me Is long since just debris Now when I feel And when I move and it seems so real I crash and burn on waxen wing To the delight of Ra, the bitter king Vane and pitiful, Hopeless, lost So sorry for myself Hiding in the smiles and jokes Afraid to face the cost Where is balance, where is centre The place where truth lies Just before it dies The search for help not quick enough Another symptom of dire disease Afraid to stand So much easier with head in sand

Never have I known pain like this I know what I want but still; the doubt Crushing weight upon my heart Unilateral withdrawl creates her void Her pain for which my guilt consumes me Hope is gone, the glimmer flattened by relentless sadness I know, I know but can't admit The future is the past unless direction changes Fifteen years of squandered time Always knowing in back of mind It's wrong, it's hollow, it's better than nought So now I face it once again It's time I choose to live Alone and desperate, dire and doubting Or free and prosperous I can not see, I wish I could not feel

Escapism is the currency Of the bankrupted heart. Two walls collide, a dark place to hide Fetal curl, small, small, get small For years, decades, centuries no doubt Bitter, empty, lonely, lashing out Lifelong friends are hard to find but fear has never left me behind

Empty, aching, all alone Living together, clones and drones without purpose Charged molecules bouncing through the ether Millions and billions without direction We are denizens of the pods waiting for Morpheus Awakening is what we seek though most don't know Our energy's wasted, drained for naught Inertia without order wears at the soul Each time a particle floats near the attractions rise Rising though the particle has passed Attraction peaks and as inertia overcomes the bond We spin off again Is there a molecule in this universe with which to bond? An energy to fuse When two molecules meet in the right aspect Two molecules charged for each other Missing links complete synthesis Through time and space the energies coalesce and two become one.

The whales at play they make big waves Dance with ease on clear blue seas 20 tonnes to pirouette Now that’s a sight you’ll not forget The wolf cubs wrestle growl and bite Instinct teaches life’s mean plight The young hunter’s time will come When sad destiny destroys his innocence And hunger reigns o’er his kingdom